Our boy Freddyo interviews Reginae & Nique

Lil Tiny & Lil Toya stopped for a moment to give one of my fave bloggers Freddyo a moment of their precious time. These girls are so adorable! Kudos to Tiny & Toya for obviously being great moms! Shout out to Lolo & Beauty of the OMG girlz as well :)

My Homie's Mixtape Released

Click to Download the Mixtape!

Few things make me happier than seeing the people I love & care about accomplishing their dreams..and just seeing them happy. Here's a guy I went to high school with who is just simply talented. James is talented in so many ways, but he chose to pursue his passion of music..and has stuck with it. Im proud to say that his mixtape is available today for download! The mixtape is hosted by DJ Ill Will & DJ Rockstar! Support my homie & get his mixtape! He's doing what he loves & I am soooo proud of his grind..I mean he has been going for forever! It can be dis heartening in this industry at times but he has stayed persistent & its paying off!!! Love this guy..check him out! TNT BabyKayKs

Music That Moves Me

This is a song I loved growing up...music in the 90s just felt really good. Love this record! Enjoy BabyKayKs

I dont want the world to see me, cus I dont think that they'd understand

Goo Goo Dolls Iris

Smile

So, my niece Madyson has a beautiful voice..she has a few youtube videos, "Encourage Yourself" being the most popular..but she gave me a moment out of her busy schedule when I was home last to record something for the people that love her vids.. These are things that I watch when I need a pick me up! Enjoy BabyKayks

Kayki's Closet

Speaking of TAGS... go check out what they have.. Yall always getting on me about posting affordable stuff..so here is something affordable... I love these boots!


ClickTo visit TAGS and shop!

TAGS is not closing Sandra Rose..SMH!

Kandi & her business partner Peaches-click to shop online!

So, who knows who Sandra Rose is? She's a fellow blogger...who's blog I really dont care to read...98% of the time its negative & people can excuse it as her niche or a front..but I dislike it. Anywho, today I hopped on twitter to find Kandi tweeting away about her store not closing. Immediately I knew who blogged such a thing. I didnt even have to go read all of the tweets I'd missed. Following Kandi came a slew of other tweets from various people that I follow, all feeling the same way...Sandra Rose is full of it and needs to stop reaching.

What Kandi had to say via Twitter:

TAGS is not closing so do not believe the hype. again the site is www.TAGSatl.com get on the mailing list 4 an invite 2 our next event

Also they have started their online shopping this month for those of you who cant make it to the actual store. Kandi & her partner have some pretty hot fashions in there, so check it out! Im not hating on SR I just wish she was happier with her life- then she'd have happier things to say..like visit TAGSATL.com! lol TNT BabyKayKs

Wayne joins Twitter

Click to Follow Wayne

Is this news, LOL..not to me, but I know my readers love them some Wayne..so I try to keep up with him. I tell you what, Im not personally following him, but I will say that I have been intrigued by his tweets that are RT by my tweeties! First off, you should know that within 24 hrs he had 100k plus followers LOL! More interesting than that though as I said is what he's tweeting. What would you as a fan expect Wayne to be tweeting about? Maybe you all know him better than I do...lol...because I was shocked. I went to his page when I saw someone RT'ing him and was almost tempted to follow him.

He's tweeting some pretty sweet love quotes. I was teasing yesterday about him getting his Shakespeare on..but I think its dope that he's not afraid to show that side of him, even if its via twitter. I called my girl who always fusses about what all of these women see in Wayne and read her the tweets- she cracked up. Though I am intrigued by his tweets, its not a surprise to me that they are so sweet or that women fall for him. He's a rapper & rappers are really just poets w/ urban vocabulary..Im sure Wayne can talk his way in and out of any situation...he's great with words lol. So anywho, if youre on twitter and have managed to not know that he's on there, now you do. It is really him, so dont worry about fakes..lol

Wayne's quotes that almost made me click follow! LOL

if love is everywhere,i'll never end up in the middle of nowhere.
about 3 hours ago via web

hello future,goodbye now,im on my way to the past.....................
about 17 hours ago via web

aint it funny how love finds you in your darkest place...?
1:18 PM Feb 22nd via web

if its held in your heart,u kant let go.
3:32 AM Feb 22nd via web

Deep stuff right?! lol..TNT BabyKayKs

Tell The Truth

WE CAN DO IT TOO!

Click the photo to visit the original article

So, thats a pretty dope submarine. Bright pink. Funny part is, traditionally the color pink is attributed to girls/women...but today there is a national headline regarding the Pentagon & women serving on submarines. There isnt much information on the site itself regarding details of the issue, but this much is clear, women have not been able to serve on submarines here in America- does this bother anyone else? I believe its rather interesting that this type of information is not made a pressing issue by the public. I try to keep you all informed of not just entertainment but issues that effect you everyday..whether you know it or not!

I am grateful for every step towards equality that we have made as a nation, but Im afraid that in light of those accomplishments our fight has become weaker. There are still issues of equality that have to be dealt with, and we cant be distracted by the fact that we've made such accomplishments. What sense does it make that a woman was almost elected as the President, but there are still restrictions on where we can serve on the ground/water? SMH! Make yourselves aware of these issues...talk about them with your friends/fam/public officials. Be informed! S/O to my Spelsis Victoria White Mason for informing me of this. TNT BabyKayKs

One of JayZ's infamous nephews is Following in His Footsteps

Jay Z & Ramel

Ramel Carter is the nephew of Shawn "Jay Z" Carter. As any Jay fan knows, Jay loves his nephews/niece always raps about them. Im sure he's happy to know that his influence on their lives has caused one to decide to get into the rap game. From the play on one of Jay's lines at the beginnning of this video- it may actually be hereditary.

Ramel Carter sat down with Right On Mag for a little interview!

Right On! TV Interview With Ramel Carter from rightonmag on Vimeo.

KayKi's Closet

These are really fly...and expensive! Im always getting into trouble about posting these expensive shoes, but I think they are fly and I want yall to see them...you may not be able to afford EVERYTHING Ipost but thats not the point..be inspired. TNT BabyKayKs

Giuseppe Zanotti Ankle Strap Pumps

Music That Moves Me

I love this record...its an incredible concept & write..on top of that Natasha's voice is just incredible. She's one of the artists who can just really sing. I mean the chick can really sing. Please dont sleep on her! Im always excited to hear her new material because she's consistent! Well..enjoy BabyKayKs.

..I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me. Theres a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree..

Tell The Truth

Well blogs always want to blog about how Jay & Bey are divorcing or not on good terms..based on pictures. I think thats foolery, but I will say I love the fact that these pictures in particular are out there to counter some of that negativity! Let these people be happily married, lol! Those gestures look very natural to me, no that its my business but still- Shouts out to the Carters :)TNT BabyKayKs

Music That Moves Me

I was introduced to Imogen Heap in high school by a friend..and it changed my life, lol. She pushes the envelope & I learned a lot about thinking outside of the melody from her. I love that there are always little surprises hidden in her music..little harmonies, adlibs..I just love it. Here is one of my favorite records by her.. Enjoy BabyKayKs

KayKi's Closet

Sorry Ive been MIA BaybiKayKs..I promise I will pick back up next week..my life is out of control right now! LOL...but for now, here is a pretty dope shoe that I'd like to share. Again, I have no clue what brand it is, but thats not important..I post these things to inspire you! TNT BabyKayKs!

KayKi's Closet

I'd thought maybe I'd have a lil fun today and post whats ABSOLUTELY NOT in my closet....no no no Prada NO!!!!!! LOL

From Prada 2010 Spring Collection

Music That Moves Me

My Bff Dina (Tasia as I call her) put me up on this record last night- as Im usually un-Up on new music b/c I dont really listen to the radio or watch much TV..especially videos. Well, I dig it.. thought I'd share..what do you all think?? Enjoy BabyKayKs

They Own the Night

I thought this was cute. My boys Tarrik & Kareem of T12 Ent getting their Diddy on- had to post this. Be on the look out for their events here & in MIA for Spring Break...if you see me at anybody's event it will most likely be theirs. I cracked up when I saw this- just because they really do look super fly & their personalities shine through! Love it fellas-keep it up! T12..period. LOL

Heal The World 2010

Beautiful to see everyone coming together for a good cause! Celine is absolutely AMAZING! #ThatsAll lol

Sir Will & The Rose Parade Cover "Hard"

Ok- Im excited. I featured a song by Sir Will for the MTMM the other day but it didnt include his Rose Parade- Miss Brie & Miss Neveah! Well here is a track that does feature these two ladies...and when I tell you I LOVE the arrangements on this joint! These ladies sing for FILTH ok?? Love it. Had to share it..What is this like the Avalon Music Group take over Day(Niv & now Sir Will)??? lol.. like 3 posts in a row!? Thats how yall feel Avalon? Get it then..Love it. TNT BabyKayks

Nivea is Baaaaack

Nivea-click to follow her

Nivea had a big weekend- couple things released. The video for her collab with Rasheeda & her first single from her upcoming album Purple Heart, Love Hurts. Below is the full song- if you like what you hear you can cop it on Amazon.com. Support real music. Kudos to Niv for the "ode" to Brandy w. those adlibs!!! Yes "I Tried" is my jam! Anywho-great to have new music from Nivea..I'll keep yall up on it as long as she's recording it!TNT BabyKayks

Love this lyric!

"..If ever there was a bitter story of a woman scorned- here's one.."

Rasheeda & Nivea "Say Something Rmx" Video!

I told yall I'd post it...sorry I've been MIA crazy weekend, but yall know I dig this joint. Love the vid as well both Nivea & Rasheeda killed this. Yall peep Rasheeda forever rockin a hot pair of SBShades..check the archive for a lil interview he did just for kaykispeaks.com! Shout out to Miss Brie- the make up is PERFECT!

Music That Moves Me

Click to Follow SirWill and hear more exclusive tracks from the up and coming mixtape!

If you dont know who he is, you should. Im so glad to put some of you up on him. Sir Will & the Rose Parade is a band made up of Willie Hendrixx & his Rose Petals my girl Miss Brie & Miss Neveah. Though this record is dope (features Cherish) you HAVE to hear them live if you ever get the opportunity. They are incredible live! This particular joint feels really good too though. The vocals on this are hot- its a great write as well...Im just really feeling it.

Sir Will will be releasing a mixtape "Road 2 Rose; The Detour" on 3/17! I will be posting a link to it on here when it becomes available. Trust you want to get the mixtape. My girl Brie BLAZED a track w. Rasheeda called "Shots" and if I didnt know I had so many young readers I would have posted it, because its HOT! but you can hear it now by clicking on the above photo & visiting Sir Will's twitter page! Also look out for the entire mixtape in March!! TNT BabyKayKs..Enjoy

Tell The Truth:

So You're Mad at John Mayer?

John Mayer-Click to read his observations of all that has happened today!

So, after a bit of a break from twitter this morning I returned to my long lost love only to find it flooded with tweets about John Mayer. Now, Im known to love him on occasion, lol. He is an incredible writer, "Your Body is a Wonderland", "Daughters", "Waiting On the World To Change" all prove that. His artistry is undeniable. As with many dope artists though- so is his insanity..which is ok! Artists usually are a bit off of their rocker, consider any body in history who ever was great at one of the arts- they were always abnormal. Well, I decided (as you should always do) to read the article that was upsetting so many of my tweeties for myself.

While reading it I became slightly removed from my purpose for reading it because it was often overshadowed by his God given ability to use words. I mean, this man's mind is COMPLEX! I absolutely love it! As I was reading it I was posting a few of his quotes from it on twitter. I didnt want to offend the people who were so offended by what he'd said, but I just love it when people use words cleverly- hey Im a writer...cant help it.

So, I read the entire interview and decided that maybe this was one of the times in my life that my love for cander needed to be examined. I love it when a person can say what they feel as easily as Mayer did. NOw at times in certain positions (as an artist) one may need a filter or someone to say that some things should be left unsaid in interviews, but I'd be willing to bet that many people feel the same way MAyer does- they just wont say it....well I will! Whats wrong with him not being attracted to black women? Im not genuinely attracted to white men. I mean every once in a while a David Beckham look alike might catch my attention, but if Im honest its not something I open myself up to- as Mayer said.

I believe we as a people will always be burdened by the word -nigger- unless we remove the power from it. How oxymoronic is it that we can use it day in and day out with each other but when someone else uses it, we damn them? Furthermore I was caught off gaurd because when I read his statement I didnt get a literal meaning as many did- I got a sarcastic point of the opposite. What he said made perfect sense to me. I interpereted his statement as- if he were really black- he'd be able to say such a thing and it be ok. Now, do I appprove with him using THAT example equating "hood" to "being black"? No. I definitely didnt grow up in the hood and well, Im what I like to call the perfect shade of milk chocolate.

Overall I believe this interview was taken out of context and scrutinized just because he's white. What frightens me even more is the idea that if he were black and said he only has sex with black women- he'd be glorified by the same women on twitter who are bashing him today. I understand that he used poor word choice, but we as a people have to be consistant. Just because we have endured sooo much doesnt make it ok for us to secretly be racist ourselves. You cant really listen to rap music these days w.out some negative connotation towards women, white women, black women in it- yet we rap/sing along as if its nothing- why? Because we give each other passes-the very pass he was proving that he doesnt get!

So anywho thats my stance- stop always trying to blow up on people who offend your race- when if you are honest you often offend theirs. Its time out for that nonsense. I've been a huge fan of Mayers, and I still am. I was not offended by his bad word choice as much as I was the fact that black people on twitter were more upset about him not sexing black women than the word nigger. We have to do better. Since the interview became a buzz- Mayer has tweeted his apology and recognition that he should've used better judgement. Below I'll post both his tweet & the full article..you can decide for yourself whether or not he's a racist? Personally..I think thats crap..but hey I dont tend to think like the rest of the world-obviously. SMH TNT BabyKayKs

Part of John's apology via twitter-click the above photo to read the rest

johncmayer Re: using the 'N word' in an interview: I am sorry that I used the word. And it's such a shame that I did because the point I was trying to make was in the exact opposite spirit of the word itself. It was arrogant of me to think I could intellectualize using it, because I realize that there's no intellectualizing a word that is so emotionally charged.

Full Playboy interview

PLAYBOY: Is this the last John Mayer interview?

MAYER: No, though I have fantasies of it. And that doesn’t come out of pretension or laziness. It’s difficult for me to explain my life to someone without sounding like I’m complaining, which I’m not. I have no problem saying I’m in a bit of a strange time in my life.

PLAYBOY: What’s strange about this time in your life?

MAYER: In one way or another, people probably know my name now. I’m squarely nestled in the crosshairs of their criticism and media reproach. I originally played music because I was an underdog, because I didn’t want to be in school, and it always had this quality of an uprising. When you first start out, you want people to know you. There is a quality of the unknown that is very sexy—like thinking, There might be a girl in this crowd who will have a conversation with me because she knows my music. For me, it has never been about fucking lots of girls. I could have fucked a lot more girls in my life if I hadn’t been trying so hard to get them to like me. If I have a conversation with a really hot girl that lasts all night and she says, “Wow, I had no idea I was going to like you this much,” that is the equivalent, for me, of getting laid.

PLAYBOY: So how has that changed?

MAYER: I’m no longer playing music so I can walk into a party and talk to chicks, because people know who I am now. In fact, now I have a sort of negative connotation with that. [laughs] It’s a headache, you know?

PLAYBOY: Meeting girls is a headache? You have to explain that.

MAYER: I hate being the heartbreaker. Hate it. If I date somebody and it doesn’t work out, it’s another nightmare for me. I don’t like the way the odds are stacked. If I date nine more girls before I get married—which I think would be completely appropriate—that would be nine more spats of character assassination. I don’t equate sex with release, I equate it with tension. It’s given me a lot of pause. Somewhere in my brain it has probably really fucked me up.

PLAYBOY: But who cares if people assassinate your character?

MAYER: I do. I just do. I consider myself a good guy, with the best of intentions. Anybody who has been in a relationship with me would stand by the fact that I’ve never been callous. I’ve never been a bad boy. I may have taken someone through the wringer psychologically, but I’ve never been sinister.

PLAYBOY: So you’ve lost the motivation of playing music to meet girls.

MAYER: If I was playing it so I could meet hot chicks, I’ve met hot chicks, quote unquote. If I was playing it to make a ton of money, I’ve made a ton of money. If I was playing it to be well-known, I am well-known. Once you put aside girls and money, it forces you to realign your motivation for being a musician. Now I’m not a have-not but a have. Which is interesting, because music has to come from a have-not sort of place. And there are many places where I have-not.

PLAYBOY: What motivates you now?

MAYER: My motivation is to prove people wrong, to confuse them. I enjoy the challenge—I must be addicted to the challenge. I’ve gone from being a musician to being a celebrity. And when people do that, their work usually suffers. There are tunes on Battle Studies that are more applicable to other people’s lives than anything I’ve ever written before. This whole time I’ve stayed vulnerable, stayed frustrated, stayed confused. This record is the trade-off to having sort of brutalized myself for a few years. So if people see that over the past couple of years I actually got a firmer grip on writing songs about the ups and downs of life, they might go, “How did he have the time to make a record? Was he writing ‘War of My Life’ in the middle of me thinking he was a douche bag? Did I ever actually know him? Maybe he’s a pretty solid guy.”

PLAYBOY: What if you were to google the phrase John Mayer is a douche bag?

MAYER: You’d get a lot of hits. It’s this whole perception thing about tabloids, where 85 percent of the stories are not true. If you align yourself to be exactly who you know you are and to have dignity, maybe through that distorted lens you look askew to everyone else. I’ve done away with feeling aloof and trying to seem suave and bulletproof. I’ve resigned myself to being slightly awkward and goofballish.

PLAYBOY: It seems as though you realize that celebrities who complain don’t generate much sympathy.

MAYER: I have never once said “I wish the press would leave me alone.” With Twitter, I can show my real voice. Here’s me thinking about stuff: “Wouldn’t it be cool if you could download food?” It has been important for me to keep communicating, even when magazines were calling me a rat and saying I was writing a book.

PLAYBOY: Who did that?

MAYER: Star magazine at one point said I was writing a tell-all book for $10 million. On Star’s cover it said what a rat! My entire life I’ve tried to be a nice guy. The best I ever felt was when friends’ parents would say, “John can come over any time. We love that kid.” When I date a girl and find out her friends approve of me, I love it. I love being liked! I’ve given microscopic dedication to doing the right thing, taking the high road, and all of a sudden Star magazine says, “He’s a rat.” I can’t tell you it didn’t give me that much more bloodlust to do what people thought I couldn’t do.

PLAYBOY: It sounds simple, but it’s not: Battle Studies is an album about love.

MAYER: Sure. It’s an album about love in this day and age, and at my age, 32.

PLAYBOY: What do you mean by “in this day and age”? There aren’t any references in the songs that would have been unclear 20 years ago.

MAYER: I’m a self-soother. The Internet, DVR, Netflix, Twitter—all these things are moments in time throughout your day when you’re able to soothe yourself. We have an autonomy of comfort and pleasure. By the way, pornography? It’s a new synaptic pathway. You wake up in the morning, open a thumbnail page, and it leads to a Pandora’s box of visuals. There have probably been days when I saw 300 vaginas before I got out of bed.

PLAYBOY: What’s your point about porn and relationships?

MAYER: Internet pornography has absolutely changed my generation’s expectations. How could you be constantly synthesizing an orgasm based on dozens of shots? You’re looking for the one photo out of 100 you swear is going to be the one you finish to, and you still don’t finish. Twenty seconds ago you thought that photo was the hottest thing you ever saw, but you throw it back and continue your shot hunt and continue to make yourself late for work. How does that not affect the psychology of having a relationship with somebody? It’s got to.

PLAYBOY: You seem very fond of pornography.

MAYER: When I watch porn, if it’s not hot enough, I’ll make up backstories in my mind. My biggest dream is to write pornography.

PLAYBOY: How did you become a self-soother?

MAYER: I grew up in my own head. As soon as I lose that control, once I have to deal with someone else’s desires, I cut and run. I’m pretty culpable about being hard to live with. I have had a good run of imagining things into reality. I’ve got a huge streak of successes based on my own inventions. If you tell me I’m wrong or that I’m overthinking something, well, overthinking has given me everything in my career. I have a hard time not looking at anxiety disorder as being like an ATM. I can invent things really well. I mean, I have unbelievable orgasms alone. They’re always the best. They always end the way I want them to end. And I have such an ability to make believe, I can almost project something onto my wall, watch it and get off to it: sexually, musically, it doesn’t matter. When I meet somebody, I’m in a situation in which I can’t run it because another person is involved. That means letting someone else talk, not waiting for them to remind you of something interesting you had in mind.

PLAYBOY: Masturbation for you is as good as sex?

MAYER: Absolutely, because during sex, I’m just going to run a filmstrip. I’m still masturbating. That’s what you do when you’re 30, 31, 32. This is my problem now: Rather than meet somebody new, I would rather go home and replay the amazing experiences I’ve already had.

PLAYBOY: You’d rather jerk off to an ex-girlfriend than meet someone new?

MAYER: Yeah. What that explains is that I’m more comfortable in my imagination than I am in actual human discovery. The best days of my life are when I’ve dreamed about a sexual encounter with someone I’ve already been with. When that happens, I cannot lay off myself.

PLAYBOY: There are some angry, accusatory songs on the record, but there are also self-critical songs. It goes through all the changing moods you have on the worst night of your life.

MAYER: Yeah, Battle Studies is that feeling between 10 p.m. and two a.m. when you have this wild level of arousal and optimism. It’s about the things people do to each other during those hours. I have wasted four hours of my life refusing to masturbate and believing that somehow the phone would ring and I’d get a call from somebody I hadn’t talked to in years.

PLAYBOY: The phone will ring and your life will change?

MAYER: Yeah. It’s like looking for a fix. I’ll spend four hours not even putting anything into motion, just believing somehow it’s going to come my way.

PLAYBOY: You talked before about being an underdog. What were you like at 16?

MAYER: I wasn’t paying attention in school. I would come home and play guitar, playing for all the moments I had that day when I couldn’t feel alive. I visualized I was a superhero with an alter ego: “By day, a gawky, zit­faced 16-year-old boy.…” I would sleep with my guitar because I thought it would make me play better. I had a 100-disc CD player in the basement, and I would load it up with Charlie Parker, John Coltrane, Miles Davis, Kenny Burrell and Bill Evans and play CDs while I slept on the floor. Like somehow, by osmosis, the music was getting into me. It was the only way I could build enough armor to go back to school the next day.

PLAYBOY: How many hours a day were you playing?

MAYER: Three to four hours a day when I was in school, and in the summertime five to six hours a day. I wasn’t smoking cigarettes or drinking, and I wasn’t trying to hook up. I wasn’t going to parties. I remember being in my room when there was a party across town, sitting in my room and pretending I was at the party and playing for them. I remember saying to myself, If I have to sleep on a pool table every night on tour, I’ll do it. I always had that desire to be a rock star.

PLAYBOY: Were you one of those smart kids who hated school?

MAYER: I would act up and get sent to the dean’s office and talk to him as though I was an adult. “I’m not trying to upset anybody, sir. With all due respect to you and your staff, I’m just not supposed to be here. It’s quite difficult for me to sit in class, because I’m supposed to be a guitar player, sir.” I was very cocky. But from the outset, there was opposition. My parents were not the biggest fans, to put it diplomatically. I grew up saying, “You’ll see. I can’t explain it yet, but you’ll see.” Early in my career, when I was 19 or 20, I’d meet presidents of record companies and refused to give them my demos. I’d say, “We’ll see each other again sometime.”

PLAYBOY: That is really cocky.

MAYER: It was incredibly cocky. I was so tempered in opposition that when the opposition went away, I started to look like a total asshole. When my first record came out, I was still saying, “You’ll see. Check out what I did. Eat it.” It gave me this reputation for being really arrogant. I probably should have stood on top of a roof and yelled, “Fuck you!” That “I’ll show you” instinct is still alive and well. Now, instead of “We don’t think you can do it,” it’s “We think you’re a douche bag.”

PLAYBOY: Do you still have a chip on your shoulder?

MAYER: Yep. I have an extremely tall antenna that reaches high into the sky and brings in a lot of cool stuff but also a lot of unnecessary stuff. If I hadn’t had my upbringing, I would have probably been like, “Yeah, this is fun. Cool.” But right now I still have “See? See, motherfucker?”

PLAYBOY: You put in a lot of hours playing the guitar, but it also seems you were quick to pick up music theory, harmony, composition.

MAYER: I’m wired for it. I’m lucky I found a thing I was wired for, and I found it at 13. I’ve already won one of the biggest gambles of all time, which was to forgo an education so I could pursue a real all-or-none scenario. I look pretty fucking smart for having done that, though it doesn’t change the fact that it was crazy.

PLAYBOY: You have a level of self-consciousness that seems like it could be exhausting.

MAYER: Maybe that’s the douche bag part of it. Maybe I’m so meta-aware that it’s off-putting to people. But I’m old enough to know I need to change. I’m getting tired of the illusion of control. I think I’ve made my best record now, at my lowest point of confidence.

PLAYBOY: You wanted to become a rock star, and now that you are one, it’s ruined your confidence? That’s odd.

MAYER: Lately I’ve realized it’s okay to enjoy being a rock star. Like, it might actually be fun to wear sunglasses in the airport and sit in the first-class lounge as a fucking rock star who’s about to go on a world tour. I had related it to something so painful, so frustrating, so confusing, that it would give me a tension headache. Being a famous musician seemed to have brought misunderstanding and strife and a fist in the back of the head when I read something about myself. I wrote this line yesterday: “Someday soon these will just be things we used to do.” I’m sort of making a list of all the things I know I’m going to laugh at myself for taking so seriously.

PLAYBOY: So you can already imagine your future?

MAYER: This is going to sound odd, but sometimes I meet the 40-year-old me and say, “What do I do?” And 40-year-old me says, “Don’t do every scheduled interview. Go to the zoo instead. You’re going to be fine, you knucklehead. Stop overthinking what people say.” I’m trying to fold over time, to see it as a random-access hard disk where I can move to any point in time and change the way I see today.

PLAYBOY: What you describe sounds like a conversation between a father and a son. Can you talk like that with your dad?

MAYER: My dad is 82. I love him so much, but the way I communicate with him is by fixing his printer or the closed-captioning on his TV. These are the bonding moments we have.

PLAYBOY: Did kids make fun of the fact that your dad is almost 20 years older than your mom?

MAYER: No, they’d just say, “Your grandfather’s here.”

PLAYBOY: Is your heritage Jewish?

MAYER: I’m half Jewish. People say, “Well, which side of your family is Jewish?” I say, “My dad’s.” And they always say it doesn’t count. But I will say I keep my pool at 92 degrees, so you do the math. I find myself relating to Judaism. One of my best friends is Jewish beyond all Jews—I went to my first Passover seder at his house—and I train in Krav Maga with a lot of Israelis.

PLAYBOY: You said there are still things you don’t have. What are those things?

MAYER: I could make anybody understand that my life is not all rainbows and unicorns, but why would I want to? I’m sort of selling them the idea that it’s rainbows and unicorns. I could explain that, in fact, I’m not a douche bag, but that would be at the expense of believing in magic. I don’t want to tear down the facade. People want to imagine that if they get a record deal, they can buy a Ferrari. People need that. I don’t want to take that away from people. Anything I don’t have is a direct descendant of the things I do have. I mean, let’s say there’s a 12 percent chance I’ll never marry and have kids because the music career fucked me in some way. If that’s the case, I still know it’s my calling. I hold out hope that there’s a way to be a supernatural being onstage and an extremely natural being at home.

PLAYBOY: Why are you so anxious about never getting married?

MAYER: What if I meet a woman and it’s love at first sight, and this woman has the greatest night of her life by telling me to fuck off because she knows my reputation? I always say, “Turning me down is the new sleeping with me.” What is a guy supposed to say to a girl who says “You do this all the time”? Girls always say that. Sometimes they say “I’ve been warned about you.” But I can undo that in a couple of days. I have a line for that: “Keep your warning for a while; let’s take it slow.”

PLAYBOY: Were you one of those people who thought fame would be rainbows and unicorns?

MAYER: I had a conversation about fame with Jen [Aniston] before we ever really stepped out in public. She said, “Do you understand what this entails?” Two weeks later I had people outside my house. I was smart enough to know it would probably make me a salable item for the paparazzi. I knew I’d have to move to a home that had a gate. But that pearl of possibility that lives in your heart when you meet somebody you want to know more about has such a different molecular density than everything else that you have to pursue it. And I wouldn’t undo it, man. Because if it had worked out, I would have reaped the benefits. I would be sitting here saying, “What I have when I go home is the thing I’ve always wanted.”

PLAYBOY: Has Jen heard Battle Studies?

MAYER: Yes. I played it for her as the record was being made.

PLAYBOY: What did she say?

MAYER: Look, there’s a level of honesty in that record that probably made her uncomfortable, but I couldn’t let that change the way I wrote songs. There were moments when she said, “What’s that line?” Like, “That’s not about me, is it?” While I was going out with her she was on the cover of GQ wearing nothing but a tie. These are occupational hazards. When she heard Battle Studies she just wanted to be able to say “I want to know that you hold me correctly in your heart.”

PLAYBOY: What percentage of the album is about Aniston?

MAYER: I don’t want to say. I feel bad because people think “Heartbreak Warfare” is about her. I want to go on record saying it’s not. That woman would never use heartbreak warfare. That woman was the most communicative, sweetest, kindest person. When people hear the record, I hope the songs make them think about their lives, not my life. Like, when you listen to Coldplay, do you think about Gwyneth Paltrow? I don’t write songs in order to stick it to my exes. I don’t release underground dis tracks. [laughs]

PLAYBOY: You’ve rarely talked about Aniston. She has rarely talked about you.

MAYER: We just have a regard for each other’s feelings that is pretty intense. It’s been a deep relationship, and it’s no longer taking place at all. Have you ever loved somebody, loved her completely, but had to end the relationship for life reasons?

PLAYBOY: Did you send Aniston a copy of the CD after it was done?

MAYER: No.

PLAYBOY: Maybe she’ll download it from BitTorrent.

MAYER: If Jennifer Aniston knows how to use BitTorrent I’ll eat my fucking shoe. One of the most significant differences between us was that I was tweeting. There was a rumor that I had been dumped because I was tweeting too much. That wasn’t it, but that was a big difference. The brunt of her success came before TMZ and Twitter. I think she’s still hoping it goes back to 1998. She saw my involvement in technology as courting distraction. And I always said, “These are the new rules.”

PLAYBOY: You mean the rules of celebrity have changed since Friends made her a star?

MAYER: I said, “Tom Cruise put on a fat suit.” That pretty much sums up the past decade: Tom Cruise with a comb-over, dancing to Flo Rida in Tropic Thunder. And the world went, “Welcome back, Tom Cruise.”

PLAYBOY: What’s the moral there?

MAYER: You have to show that you don’t take yourself seriously. Once you do that, people will say you’re cool: “You know what? I gotta say I never liked him until he made fun of himself, and now I like him.”

PLAYBOY: If you didn’t know you, would you think you’re a douche bag?

MAYER: It depends on what I picked up. My two biggest hits are “Your Body Is a Wonderland” and “Daughters.” If you think those songs are pandering, then you’ll think I’m a douche bag. It’s like I come on very strong. I am a very…I’m just very. V-E-R-Y. And if you can’t handle very, then I’m a douche bag. But I think the world needs a little very. That’s why black people love me.

PLAYBOY: Because you’re very?

MAYER: Someone asked me the other day, “What does it feel like now to have a hood pass?” And by the way, it’s sort of a contradiction in terms, because if you really had a hood pass, you could call it a nigger pass. Why are you pulling a punch and calling it a hood pass if you really have a hood pass? But I said, “I can’t really have a hood pass. I’ve never walked into a restaurant, asked for a table and been told, ‘We’re full.’"

PLAYBOY: It is true; a lot of rappers love you. You recorded with Common and Kanye West, played live with Jay-Z.

MAYER: What is being black? It’s making the most of your life, not taking a single moment for granted. Taking something that’s seen as a struggle and making it work for you, or you’ll die inside. Not to say that my struggle is like the collective struggle of black America. But maybe my struggle is similar to one black dude’s.

PLAYBOY: Do black women throw themselves at you?

MAYER: I don’t think I open myself to it. My dick is sort of like a white supremacist. I’ve got a Benetton heart and a fuckin’ David Duke cock. I’m going to start dating separately from my dick.

PLAYBOY: Let’s put some names out there. Let’s get specific.

MAYER: I always thought Holly Robinson Peete was gorgeous. Every white dude loved Hilary from The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air. And Kerry Washington. She’s superhot, and she’s also white-girl crazy. Kerry Washington would break your heart like a white girl. Just all of a sudden she’d be like, “Yeah, I sucked his dick. Whatever.” And you’d be like, “What? We weren’t talking about that.” That’s what “Heartbreak Warfare” is all about, when a girl uses jealousy as a tactic.

PLAYBOY: You said that song isn’t about Aniston. Why is it important for people to know that?

MAYER: I’m very protective of Jen.

PLAYBOY: Do you still love her?

MAYER: Yes, always. I’ll always be sorry that it didn’t last. In some ways I wish I could be with her. But I can’t change the fact that I need to be 32.

PLAYBOY: Last June she was given an award from Women in Film. In her acceptance speech she pointed out that the titles of her films closely parallel her private life. Then she asked if anyone in the audience had “a project titled Everlasting Love With an Adult, Stable Male.” It seems as if she was referring to you.

MAYER: I imagine I’ve got something to do with that. Parts of me aren’t 32. My ability to go deep with somebody is old soul. My ability to commit and be faithful is old soul. But 32 just comes roaring out of me at points when I don’t see it coming. I want to dance. I want to get on an airplane and be like a ninja. I want to be an explorer. I want to be like The Bourne Identity. I don’t want to pet dogs in the kitchen.

PLAYBOY: That’s not so weird for a 32-year-old.

MAYER: Right. For a long time I was asking, “What’s wrong with me?” I spent hundreds and hundreds of dollars on therapy for people to say, “Nothing is wrong.” I had seen splitting up with her as akin to burning an American flag. Do you know what I mean? I considered myself a villain.

PLAYBOY: How did you feel like a villain?

MAYER: I felt as though I’d done something wrong and was going to be punished for it. When the media picked up on it, it was the worst fucking week of my life. I found notes at my front desk: “I work for Us Weekly; I’d like to talk to you.” I’m working out at the gym, and next to me on the elliptical trainer I see a woman I think already approached me and said she was with In Touch. But wouldn’t that be paranoid to think? I’m going insane. I haven’t slept. I’m about to go blind—you know the phrase blind rage? All I can remember is that I was about to lose my vision. My emotional tissue was about to tear. So after I left the gym I said “Come here” to all the reporters and paparazzi. I was on the verge of crying and also on the verge of punching someone.

PLAYBOY: This was August 2008, when you said you had ended the relationship “because I don’t want to waste somebody’s time if something’s not right.”

MAYER: It really, really upset her. I wanted to take responsibility for having ended it because I saw it as such an offense. But a lot of people felt I was saving face. This would serve to begin the period of my life I’m just exiting, when love made me feel guilty and people called me a rat, a womanizer and a cad.

PLAYBOY: You’ve also been called a man-whore.

MAYER: I feel like women are getting their comeuppance against men now. I hear about man-whores more than I hear about whores. When women are whorish, they’re owning their sexuality. When men are whorish, they’re disgusting beasts. I think they’re paying us back for a double standard that’s lasted for a hundred years.

PLAYBOY: What does the word womanizer mean to you?

MAYER: Well, wouldn’t a womanizer have dated more than two girls in two years?

PLAYBOY: You and Aniston got back together and broke up again in 2009. How many women did you sleep with in the eight months after the breakup?

MAYER: I’m going to say four or five. No more.

PLAYBOY: That’s a reasonable number.

MAYER: But even if I said 12, that’s a reasonable number. So is 15. Here’s the thing: I get less ass now than I did when I was in a local band. Because now I don’t like jumping through hoops. It’s been so long since I’ve taken a random girl home. I don’t want to have to submit myself for approval. I don’t want to audition. I’d rather come home and edge my shit out for 90 minutes. At this point, before I can have sex I need to know somebody. Unless she’s a 14 out of 10.

PLAYBOY: You have been very up front about your fondness for masturbation.

MAYER: It’s like a vacation—my brain gets to go free. It’s a walk in the park for my brain. Pull the shades and let your mind go without having to answer for it.

PLAYBOY: The way you talk about being 32 sounds as though you were too immature for Aniston.

MAYER: No, the actual day-to-day was fantastic. I have to explain this so people don’t say, “Sure, you’re 32, and you want to fuck other chicks.” If you say I’m not adult and stable, it sounds as though I’m someone who’s watching football and playing Xbox. I have this bond with infinite possibility—when I go out to dinner, I bring another shirt, a flashlight, a knife, a hard drive, a camera. It’s not like I wanted to be with somebody else. I want to be with myself, still, and lie in bed only with the infinite unknown. That’s 32, man.

PLAYBOY: In 2006 you began dating Jessica Simpson, and the paparazzi started stalking you, turning you into a tabloid fixture. Certainly you knew that was going to happen.

MAYER: It wasn’t as direct as me saying “I now make the choice to bring the paparazzi into my life.” I really said, “I now make the choice to sleep with Jessica Simpson.” That was stronger than my desire to stay out of the paparazzi’s eye. That girl, for me, is a drug. And drugs aren’t good for you if you do lots of them. Yeah, that girl is like crack cocaine to me.

PLAYBOY: You were addicted to Jessica Simpson?

MAYER: Sexually it was crazy. That’s all I’ll say. It was like napalm, sexual napalm.

PLAYBOY: But before you dated her you thought of yourself as the kind of guy who would never date Jessica Simpson.

MAYER: That’s correct. There are people in the world who have the power to change our values. Have you ever been with a girl who made you want to quit the rest of your life? Did youever say, “I want to quit my life and just fuckin’ snort you? If you charged me $10,000 to fuck you, I would start selling all my shit just to keep fucking you.”

PLAYBOY: So at this point—

MAYER: Pardon me for interrupting. I love Jen so much that I’m now thinking about how bad I would feel if she read this and was like, “Why are you putting me in an article where you’re talking about someone else? I don’t want to be in your lineage of kiss-and-tells.”

PLAYBOY: At this point, what’s your ideal relationship?

MAYER: Here’s what I really want to do at 32: fuck a girl and then, as she’s sleeping in bed, make breakfast for her. So she’s like, “What? You gave me five vaginal orgasms last night, and you’re making me a spinach omelet? You are the shit!” So she says, “I love this guy.” I say, “I love this girl loving me.” And then we have a problem. Because that entails instant relationship. I’m already playing house. And when I lose interest she’s going to say, “Why would you do that if you didn’t want to stick with me?”

PLAYBOY: Why do you do it?

MAYER: Because I want to show her I’m not like every other guy. Because I hate other men. When I’m fucking you, I’m trying to fuck every man who’s ever fucked you, but in his ass, so you’ll say “No one’s ever done that to me in bed.”

PLAYBOY: Do you do something different in bed than other guys?

MAYER: It’s all about geometry. I’m sort of a scientist; it’s about being obtuse with an angle. It’s sort of this weird up-and-over thing. You gotta think “up and over.”

PLAYBOY: Maybe that’s easier at your height. You talked about listening to Miles Davis and Bill Evans in high school, but that’s not the kind of music you make.

MAYER: I make mainstream music. I don’t believe in guilty pleasures; I believe in pleasures. I know where I stand when I hear Miley Cyrus’s “Party in the USA” or “The Climb”—which may be the best pop song of the past year.

PLAYBOY: It’s a little surprising that you like Miley Cyrus so much.

MAYER: I took a friend and his kids to see Miley Cyrus in Vegas. After the show I said to her, “That was fantastic. Fantastic.” I said, “Take $100,000, put it in a shoe box and bury it in your backyard.” I walked away thinking, That may be the strangest thing I’ve ever said. It just means put a little away. Have something nobody can ever take away from you.

PLAYBOY: Keep a secret fund in case you wake up at three a.m. thinking, Screw this, and you need to disappear?

MAYER: Exactly. That’s what I do with my blackjack winnings—I keep them safe and sound.

PLAYBOY: Among the things we’ve read about you online is this: You’re gay. Have you ever kissed a man?

MAYER: The only man I’ve kissed is Perez Hilton. It was New Year’s Eve and I decided to go out and destroy myself. I was dating Jessica at the time, and I remember seeing Perez Hilton flitting about this club and acting as though he had just invented homosexuality. All of a sudden I thought, I can outgay this guy right now. I grabbed him and gave him the dirtiest, tongue-iest kiss I have ever put on anybody—almost as if I hated fags. I don’t think my mouth was even touching when I was tongue kissing him, that’s how disgusting this kiss was. I’m a little ashamed. I think it lasted about half a minute. I really think it went on too long.

PLAYBOY: Perez describes you on his site as a womanizer, a word you don’t like. Is it fair to say you have a love-hate relationship with him?

MAYER: I used to. Now I believe we’re fully into fighting with breakaway chairs. I think he’s pretty much inert at this point. Perez is to hating as Richard Simmons is to health and well-being. [laughs] You can print that. Perez is so authentically off his rocker he will not let you finish a sentence. I think he has some dark things in his past. I think he comes from a little bit of hurt, and I say that with an understated tone. At the end of the day I go to his site, but I don’t see him as a threat. The impact of his tone is beginning to wane. I give a lot more credit to Harvey Levin at TMZ.

PLAYBOY: Would you kiss Harvey Levin?

MAYER: I would rim him, probably. I can’t just repeat the kissing trick.

PLAYBOY: From following your Twitter feed we’ve learned about many of your interests. For instance, you love the Toto Washlet bidet.

MAYER: God, I want one.

PLAYBOY: But you already have platinum records and stardom.

MAYER: A platinum record is not going to wash your ass for you.

PLAYBOY: Good point. A Washlet isn’t that expensive. Why don’t you have one?

MAYER: It speaks to my level of transience. I’ll get a Washlet when I finally find a shitter I’m going to be at for a good block of time in my life. [laughs] I’m really going to enjoy that. That’s what is waiting for me on the other end of this crazy rocket ride—a warm seat and an adjustable bidet.

PLAYBOY: You said you were just exiting the phase of your life when relationships make you feel guilty. What’s the next phase?

MAYER: People are lining up around the block right now to watch me play music tonight. If some kid called me a douche bag on his terrible blog, I don’t really care. I’m letting myself out of my own prison. I’m not going to be a prisoner to a warden I can’t see. From now on I’m just going to pretend that people really dig the shit out of me. I’ve been so afraid of rocking the boat that I’m not sailing anywhere. I’ve been trying to prove to people I’m not a douche bag by not dating, by keeping my name out of Us Weekly. That’s fucked up, man. I’m not dating. I’m not even fucking. So now I’m going to experiment with “fuck you.” In 2010 my goal is to get more mentions in Us Weekly than ever.

Dont Forget about Haiti!!!!

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While we all have allowed our lives to go on...its important that we keep Haiti in our prayers and thoughts. Dr. Sanjay Gupta wrote a short but very relevant article about his return today. I thought I should share it. Continue to do what you can. IF you cant donate...just keep praying..I believe it works!

Returning to Haiti. Tipping the scales of faith.
By Dr. Sanjay Gupta
CNN Medical Chief Correspondent

When I told my wife I wanted to go back to Haiti, she had the reaction I expected. “The girls really missed you when you were gone last time,” she said. “I am worried that you lost too much weight down there,” she added. And, “what about your safety, physical and mental well being?” she concluded. They were all the reactions I expected. The car was then silent as we were driving through our neighborhood on a rainy Saturday morning. In that quiet, we both realized something essential. I knew she was right, on all counts. And, still, she knew it was the right thing to do. She was the first to speak and break the silence. “Truth is, I would go with you,” she whispered. “I would like to help as well.”

I thought about that conversation a lot on the middle-of-the-night flight to Florida, a connection to Santo Domingo at 3 a.m. and then finally the early morning arrival in Port-au-Prince. She has seen the images on television of the unfathomable suffering over the last month, and she was affected by it in more ways that I realized. Over the few days I was home, we hardly talked about what I had seen in Haiti. I felt the need to protect her from those stories, some of which I may never share with anyone - and she was cognizant of the desire to not re open the emotional images. She also knew that while I was physically home, my mind never left Haiti.

Most of the time I was in Haiti, I was a doctor. With the cameras off, I saw patient after patient, most of them with head injuries and with no access to a neurosurgeon. Many of them needed reassurance, and a few needed emergent operations. As a reporter, I was able to help highlight the stark difference between most international aid, and medical aid. In short, the requirement for medical aid was immediate –measured literally in minutes and hours. If action wasn’t taken, and quickly, people would die that could’ve been saved. As a father, I held a lot of small hands and offered a soothing voice, to children whose parents had been lost.

So many times over the past month, I had my faith completely trashed as I saw unjustified loss of life and suffering. I saw amputations being performed without adequate anesthesia as nurses and doctors held down a patient while performing brutal operations. I saw the tears running down those same nurses and doctors cheeks while their faces were steeled with desperation, determination and a little anger at the awful position they were all in together.

But, I also had moments where my faith was restored. Small improvements in water distribution, a slow trickle of supplies turning into a river of good will, a rush of health care providers and private citizens with sleeves rolled up and grit on their skin. Like my wife, they all wanted to help, in any way possible.

If you look throughout the history of our own lives, there are a few occasions when we see something that galvanizes the entire world. In a world where there is too much bickering about politics, and too much fascination with pop culture, every now and then people simply come together. I returned to Haiti because I wanted to show the slow but inevitable medical recovery happening here. People should not forget what has happened and what will be necessary for a long time to come. I returned because I wanted to remind people of the relentless and extraordinary resolve of the beautiful Haitian people. I came back because the story I am telling is of the scales of faith being tipped here, just a little bit.

Remember you can always donate by clicking the yellow & black box to the right! You pray by speaking to God..no cool words- just speak. xox TNT BabyKayKs

Sleeping Beauty

This is rather interesting to me, maybe because Im all sorts of interested in the psychological ramifications of this disease.. and Im a psych nerd, BUT its interesting none the less....she really is sleeping beauty!! WOW!

Smile

I havent posted in this section in a while either (KayKi is SLACKING! lol sorry been super busy) but one thing that made me smile today was to go to lifefiles.com and see these promo pics of my girl Whitney. Yall know I love me some Whitney & does she not look AMAZING! These are supposed promo pics for her world tour- one word- WORK! TNT BabyKayKs

KayKi's Closet

I dont even know who made these shoes. My niece Madyson found them online..she's 7...she has impeccable taste..she gets it from her Tia (me)thats all.Ugh..love these. & finally a black foot! LOL!!

What They Said!

My Friends ROCK!!!!!

Me & Keesh Sr. year :)! Click to follow her!

I havent done one of these features in a while- but I think this one is worth posting! While matriculating through the illustrious Spelman College, I was favored to be surrounded by some of the most brilliant, beautiful, colorful women anyone could ever imagine. One person in particular I met my freshWoman year and we immediately developed a bond. We soon moved in together and that bond grew! Ms. Kisha Woods MA.Ed, CRE (Keesh or Choing as we call her! She looks Asian right??!) comes from one of the craziest/hardest backgrounds I've ever heard of. Yet upon meeting her and learning of her background you will find that not only did she survive it, but she surpassed it by leaps and bounds. She has accomplished things that nobody before her has, paving the way for her younger family members to come behind her.

Growing up in the "hood" of Cincinnati, Kisha pressed her way to graduate from high school at the top of her class and 4 years later (while working & attending school FULL time) she managed to graduate from Spelman with honors. As if that wasnt enough, Kisha went on to earn her Masters from Colombia and is now a teacher in DC..She's only 23! I try to surround myself with women who think like me. Going to Spelman was one of the best decisions of my life because I was flooded with a billion to choose from! Kisha is one who I draw inspiration from on a regular. Whenever I think something impossible- I think of Keesh. Whenever I think to be frustrated with what I dont have I think of all Keesh has endured/obtained with very little. When I feel a lazy spirit creeping up- I can think of Keesh for motivation!

BabyKayKs, its so important that your "girls" "fellas" are able to encourage the good in you. If you are surrounded by a bunch of people doing nothing- chances are its gonna be really hard for you to accomplish much without them pulling you down. I am blessed to be able to say that I have some of the most incredibly talented, God fearing, focused friends a girl could ask for. So with that said, Kisha has a blog and this particular entry I believe is important, because it is a subject that many people struggle with dealing with effectively. Keesh being so on point- has exposed the fact that its something she is having to deal with in her classroom! I'd love for you all to take your time and read it & share your comments. TNT BabyKayKs

Difficulty of Racial Discourse in the Classroom
As a graduate of Spelman College, I have become very comfortable with speaking about race in any environment. Before coming to Spelman College, I was not aware that race is a social construct and not a biological factor. In the Spelman College environment, it was enlightening to have racial discourse in the classroom. The professors challenged us to understand our racial identity individually and our racial identity within the context of white America. As a student in Toni Morrison seminar, my head popped, when I read Toni Morrison's, Playing in the Dark. I learned that the presence of blackness is in every arena, although others that are racists attempt to erase every inkling of presence of blackness; their efforts even more enforce the presence of blackness. This is extremely powerful in many ways because no matter how much we try to become color blind to other races, that have been constructed by human beings, our very blindness will only make their race resonate even more.

So as an educator, it is imperative that I do not pretend to be color blind to many color hues that are present within my classroom. I can not be silent about the racism that is covert but breathing in every aspect of the world. But when I chose to talk about race, and its tension, and difficulties, I must approach it in a productive way. Even it is challenging and uncomfortable, we must address it. If I don't address it, I subconsciously demonstrate to my students that racism is alright!

So I have decided to teach the autobiographical novel Kaffir Boy, to of course talk about race, but to build apathy for the importance of education for all of my students. The population of my students is predominantly African American, Hispanic, and a very small percentage of Whites. I spent weeks building background knowledge about the South African Apartheid, and its impacts on the races involved. My one white student, was not present during this introduction, so he was not aware of the content of the book. After his first encounter with the novel, I received a very racist email on his or his father's behalf about their racist opinions concerning Black people and the dominance of Whites over Blacks.

As an educator, I had to ensure that I addressed the issue in a productive way! Of course, there were many thoughts that went through my head upon receiving the email. However, it demonstrated the impact that silence of racial discourse in the classroom and in our communities has on children. Our children are socialized human beings and in many cases educators are left to address the issues of racism in our classrooms. An overarching question should be, "Should teachers be left to fight this battle of racism alone?" So many questions go through my mind: "Is it our job to address race in the classroom?" "At what age?" "How do you continue to conduct the discourse even when there is tension in the classroom?"

Of course I don't have all the answers, but some solutions that I do have is that, you must create a community of learners within your classroom. Building a community is extremely difficult and it is time consuming, but it is a must if racial discourse in the classroom will be productive. Productivity is the key! Racial discourse should not be utilized to insult other races, but we must express our deepest emotions, fears, and thoughts in order to move on to discussing productive ways of dealing with racism. The tension in the classroom is inevitable, but the productivity takes place during and after the tension. Lastly, you have to look yourself in the mirror, physically, spiritually, and personally and face your racist thoughts! You have to face your insecurities in talking about race in general, before you attempt to address them in the classroom. There will be times when you will be uncomfortable, but it is a part of the process.

What will you do as an educator/individual to alleviate racism?

Music That Moves Me

Yes! I love Bilal & this was my jam. This record just feels good! Enjoy BabyKayKs

Wayne Says GoodBye via LilTwistTV..but not really... :)

Wayne & Twist- click to follow Twist!

So Wayne is known to hop on YM's Lil Twist's Ustream frequently. Last night he logged on to say goodbye to everyone and have a little fun. Its great to see Wayne taking this so well, its very encouraging even to me. The video is hilarious-the fellas definitely have a sense of humor! Wayne even jokes about what he will eat while away.I just thought it was great to see him in such good spirits considering a lot of others arent. Shout out to Twist..remember how I told you all he was such a kind young man at Jayde's party and how he got Breezy on the phone for her, well watching this video made me think the same way. He's such a nice young man..just humble and kind. I just get great energy from this guy & I wish him much more success! kudos to Twist!

Well everybody has been praying for weeks about this situation (some even longer)and today we all got a little surprise. Wayne's judge was asked to extend Wayne's stay out of jail for a while due to some tooth issue, lol. Well the prosecution recommended he start his bid on the 25th according to MTV, but the judge extended it even more to the 2rd of March. I think its great news! Anymore time he can spend with his loved ones is great! So everybody is smiling a little more today- everybody who cares to. Thought I'd update you all..Wayne is still free for a bit! TNT BabyKayKs!

I tried to embed the video- but it wont work :/ Check it at http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/4579486! Though its hilarious throughout the video- it becomes more serious at the end as Wayne addresses his fans from the heart.

Kayki's Closet

Here's another one yall are gonna jump down my neck about...but I.Dont.Care. I love this shoe...its a whole stack n a half...its Gucci..its for the dreamers & those who can afford to wear someones morgage on their feet. *sigh*

GUCCI-no not the rapper- the BRAND!

Music That Moves Me

Click to Visit www.TheMakingsofMylah.com for more Mylah!

Ok, so BabyKayKs, today's selection is a special one. I've had the opportunity to work with a few really dope individuals in the past couple of years- Ms. Mylah being one of them. She's just a real cool chic..period. Mylah is a singer/songwriter from the Midwest and I could tell you more, but I really want you to visit her website by clicking on her pic up there for any more info. She has a great blog, one of the few that I read on a daily.

So as stated above, Mylah can sannng...she has an amazingly smooth voice- and obviously a great taste in music because she is covering one of my fave artists (as yall already know) Alanis & I love this particular song! Even though she's just kinda chillin in her hoodie kinda playing around, she did an INCREDIBLE cover of this record!

She has a few more great covers on Youtube.com/mylahmylah but you know I try to expose yall to stuff you may not be familiar with-which is why I chose this record! If you DIG it as I do, she has a full mixtape available for download on her site! Get it & listen to "Dont Say You Will" O.M.G...that record is so hot! Also if you want to see more of Mylah, make sure you come to the show on Valentines day at Uptown Lounge!..she's gonna give yall a lil su'in! lol Enjoy BabyKayKs

Tell The Truth:

Bigger Than Weezy!!

Dad(oldest 2 children) & big bro (thats his lil brother in the back w/ the blue glasses)

So heres my attempt to get people to see an Icon as merely another human being...here goes nothing..

Lil Wayne/Weezy F. Baby/whatever you call him.. is an amazing gift to the industry. He's probably your favorite rapper. He has a billion hits, is a cross over artist & very well respected by his peers! I would be avoiding the truth if I didnt say that just a year ago he was just another rapper. As Ive said many times, I wouldnt even have considered myself a fan before about a year ago. Around that time, I was sort of forced to sit and listen to him, lol. Im glad I did. This blog though is not about Wayne the Icon going to jail- as I always attempt to do w/ this blog- I want my BabyKayKs to think outside of the norm- see things for what they really are.

Though he is an incredible artist, and as a fan I hate to see him being taken away from life as he knows it to spend time in jail, this is bigger than "Weezy". My life's journey over the past year has led me to a few places, and people that make Wayne going to jail today a little more personal. Two people in particular were Wayne's two oldest children. I met Reginae at the first tweet & meet & Lil Tune at his TTs bday party. These kids are just sweet & adorable & SO talented, both of them!! Meeting these two puts all of this into a whole other perspective. Maybe Lil Tune and the other two babies are too young to know whats happening, but Reginae sure does. This clip from the Carter Documentary makes my point way better than I ever could.



With those introductions came the reality that we as "fans" dont usually identify with. We see our stars as these huge untouchable Icons. Wayne in a sense is always seen as a machine..someone who is always making dope music. To his fans, his time away will be bitter sweet, but he has enough music to last probably your whole lifetime- you may not even know he's gone. His family & friends on the other hand, will have a totally different reality for the next (at least) 8 months. So to those who feel the need to blabber on about how he's not a role model, deserves this, blah blah AND blah...I'd urge you to think of him outside of his music. Think of his children, mother, and others in his life and set aside your judgemental ideas to say a prayer for him & those that know him not as Lil Wayne, but as Daddy, or Son, or Friend.


Another with Reginae & Baby Tune! B/c I know I have a few readers who think I favor these two (SMH!) there are no pics online of the other two..not that I owe you any explanation for whats on MY blog.


Son (Wayne & hi Mom) click to follow her- yes she's on twitter!

Nicki Minaj on Waynes time away!

MTV Shows

Im rooting for Wayne to come back stronger, wiser, and better than when he left. Erykah Badu has been tweeting for the past week or so all love & blessings about and for Wayne. Im with her. I pray that this time away for him is not just jail time, but its time for this non stop working guy to take a break from it all, examine life, get some rest, and peace of mind. I have faith that YM will be strong and keep moving forward, and I have no doubt that his children will be ok- they all have wonderfully strong mothers who love them a lot! As sad of a situation as this may seem... God knows what we need- He always knows. If this write up is pulling at your heart & bringing tears to your eyes- thats on purpose. I didnt want to make you sad per se, but I wanted your humanity to identify with his for just a second. Hope it worked. So again keep the whole YM/Carter family in your prayers & remember these celebs are a lot more than what you see in front of the cameras. TNT BabyKayKs!

Robin Thicke & Nicki Minaj on Letterman Tonight

Click to follow Nicki

Ok all you Barbies!-we'll call you BarbieKayKs LOL.. you can cath your HB on Letterman tonight with the gorgeous Robin Thicke. She just tweeted this pic... lol. I'll be at Utopia singing my little heart away..but if you're not in Atlanta... catch Nicki Minaj & Robin doing their thing on Letterman. TNT BabyKayKs xox

Whats Hanneninnn: Events In Atlanta

Click to Follow Victor

Ok, its here again BabyKayKs! If you havent noticed, there is a GRS show once a month. So, check back if you cant make this one. I'll be on background vocals as usual. This show will be amazing. Its going to be entertaining, insightful, and educational all in one. Victor is definitely a theatre kid at heart. This is promising to be an amazing show! The others were great too, but this one is going to steal the cake!!

This show will feature amazing talent such as: Victor Jackson, Amber Iman, Starchild, Rae, Mylah, and Chantae Cann!! Its going to be wonderful! The song selections are all from Black Musicals. Some of them you will recognize, but you may not know where they come from! Well leave it up to us and you will know when you leave. This show is going to be like no other! So, if you dont have any plans on Valentines Day, bring your love to Uptown Lounge for great food, drinks, and AMAZING entertainment! See ya there! & again, please say hi! I always get the "I came to your show" email days later :( lol! TNT BabyKayKs xoxo

KayKi's Closet

Angela & Vanessa Simmons

I've been delighted by the tweets I've read since I started following Angela Simmons just days ago. I was even more grateful when she tweeted some new looks for the shoe line she and her sister have, Pastry! I thought these were dope and thought I'd share them with you all. I dig em. Thanks to twitter, we get an inside look via one of the Simmons girls at the new Pastrys soon to drop!

Also support young business. This is real "young money" lol. These sistas are doing it and I love that they are positive & great examples to other young women! I loved them on the show & everybody says their family reminds them of mine. Our dad's are A LOT alike..& my sister & I pretty much run our dad's life too! lol. I love what these ladies are doing & I wish them all blessings & love! TNT BabyKayKs

Click to follow Angela Simmons



More New Looks for Pastry..look out for these!Click to visit lovepastry.com!

Music That Moves Me

Click to follow Solange...and I LOVE this short hair on her..this pic is FIERCE!

Ok, I hate to sound trite, but a lot of people sleep on Solange. I know Bey is like THE biggest star in R&B/pop music and sometimes being a sibling of someone so huge is like being a star against the sun... sort of not noticed..BUT real singers/music lovers/ musicians see & appreciate Solange VERY well. Solange is an absolutely incredible writer/arranger! She's written for DC3 and each of the ladies on their solo projects, along with other songs you may recognize.

Solange is a force & I cant wait for the right opportunity to come along where she can be pushed correctly! This last album was insane! I love every minute of it! The lyrics, feel, arrangements all of it is commendable! I loved how I felt her heart & passion for what she does as well. It was out the box, but it was also a breath of fresh air to me! So, anywho, this particular song features Bilal (if you dont know him you should!) maybe I'll feature him on tomorrows MTMM. Well Enjoy BabyKayKs

Solange ft. Bilal "Cosmic Journey"

The BBC's Tweet & Meet

So, last night was the 2nd Tweet & Meet by Kandi & her fellow BBCs Rasheeda, Tiny&Toya, and Diamond. I got there a little late, but it was worth it. It was held at Uptown Comedy Club here in ATL, and as the night went on, the venue became more and more fitting! It was hilarious! From the BBC showing out on stage dancing, and singing karoake, to the people in attendance getting on stage doing their songs. It was just hilarious.

KayKi's Closet

I have 3 words: Jeffrey Campbell Shoes.

Click for more madness! LOVE these!!!

The Other Black History

Otis Boykin

So, this month I have started another section that I'll refer to as "The Other Black History". I grew up in predominantly all White schools and I was taught mostly about the big name Black figures. Im not sure if that was the case for all children but it was for me. What I've come to learn in my adult years is that our contribution to this world goes way beyond just MLK, and the civil rights leaders. Dont get me wrong, I am thankful every day for what they have done, but our children (Black, White, all of them) need to know that there are other heroes who are Black who helped to make our world better, or a little easier to live in. So, today's selection is Mr. Otis Boykin. If you watch tv, listen to your radio, use a computer (I think thats all of us) you should appreciate his contribution to all history!

Mr. Otis nvented an improved electrical resistor used in computers - radios - television sets and a variety of electronic devices. Boykin's resistor helped reduce the cost of those products. Otis Boykin also invented a variable resistor used in guided missile parts, a control unit for heart stimulators, a burglar-proof cash register and a chemical air filter.

BET Honors Whitney Houston

Neyo Presenting Whitney w. her award!

So, last night BET honored some incredible people with amazing tributes! I missed the show, but I caught these videos on youtube! Jennifer Hudson & Kim Burrell honored Whitney & they SHOWED OUT! Jennifer whom Im not a huge fan of gave a great performance. Now, some of you may not know who Kim Burrell is, but I was raised on her. She is easily the most respected singer in gospel music- and even many other genres of music. She's an unbelievable musician/singer/songwriter! Whitney was clearly moved by Kim Burrell's surprise!! I have always loved Whitney, and it does mt heart so well to see her healthy and being honored! Below are the videos if you missed it!TNT BabyKayKs

Jennifer Hudson, "Ill Always Love You"


Kim Burrell "I Believe In You & Me"


The only video of her acceptance I could find- she was beautiful!

10,000 HITS!

LOL! Just wanted to say Thank You! 10,000 hits may not be much to somebody, but since I got my first hit on October 30th AND I wasnt even trying to make this blog anything special..Im so appreciative to ALLLLL of you! XOXO TNT BabyKayKs!

KayKi's Closet:Special Edition- Stevie Boi

Stevie Boi! Click to follow SBShades on twitter!

So, unless you've been living under a rock for the past couple of years, you know exactly what SB Shades are. You may not know who makes them, but you definitely know what they look like. These amazingly crafted pieces of art have been seen on all of the hottest celebs from Nicki Minaj, Gaga, Tiny, Toya,Rasheeda to Meagan Good; just to name a few. So, because I know a lot of my readers are into the Atlanta social scene and love the local celebs here, I reached out to a few people that they often work with to see if I could shed a little light on who they are- just for my BabyKayKs!

I hit Stevie Boi up on twitter, and he obliged me by taking a moment out of his crazy schedule to answer just a few questions!(Thanks luv!)

KayKi: How/When/Why did you start making the shades?

SB:The creation of my shades were inspired by nightmares I had as a kid!I would play with a lot of fabrics and try to re create what I dreamt
of or yet imagined.8 months ago I decided to take my art mainstream
and start Stevieboi.com

KayKi: Are they available to the general public, if not when will they be?

SB:My new eyewear line entitled “Fallen Agnel” will be released Feb 6th I just released pictures of the new line to the public, lots of good
feedback! (See Stevieboi.com)

KayKi: Who are some of your top clients?

SB: Top clients are Rasheeda, Tiny & Toya, Kandi, Angel Lola luv,
Sabrina Washington, Teyanna Taylor etc.

Thanks to SB for answering those questions for me!!! LOVE the shades...def trying to rock the lace ones for my bday in March!! So dope & unique ugh! love them! Ok TNT BabyKayKs

More SB fashions!! See StevieBoi.com Today to get yours!

Music That Moves Me

Click to follow Alanis's fan page on twitter!


So the Grammys were pretty hot last night. Our girl Bey set a record (whats new?) for a female with the most grammys in one night with a wopping 6! She also thanked her "Husband" which got my tweeties all excited. I must say I loved it too..its about time they start acknowledging each other lol. So, another thing that lit my twitter homepage up was Bey's cover of a song that I love, by an artist that I love-Alanis Morissette. I must say Beyonce sang for BLOOD last night. This woman is just simply amazing, she's one of my all time faves. Alanis Morissette also is easily one of my top 10 favorite artists of all time. I love her pen- its incredible. I was super geeked when Bey branched into this!!! Beyonce is a genius for incorporating this song into her show for tour.

Alanis is amazing! Her concepts, the way she easily uses words, and the passion in her voice is all too telling. "You Oughta Know" was a hit when she released it back in the day. Its a bit heavy lyrically, but hey- its her record, she can write as she chooses. I was telling my tweeties last night that this is my break up song. Not literally, the detailed experiences in this song dont mirror my own, but the overall theme so greatly depicts the anger that many of us feel after a break up. So, this is my MTMM pic today. Enjoy BabyKayKs

Warning: If you have: recently broken up with someone/are still angry, are intoxicated, or depressed, listen to this feature at another date! lol

Alanis Morissette "You Oughta Know"


Beyonce's Cover last night "If I Were a Boy/You Oughta Know"